Moving

Moving sucks. At first I was actually kind of excited. It's something new, you know?

But.

OMG

The packing, while working, especially while working during an exceptionally busy time. Then there's the move itself. Exhausting. You finally get it moved. Then you're standing in your new place at 1am thankful it's all in. Crap. Now you're realizing you're tired and are starting to feel muscles aching you forgot about. You want nothing more than to crawl into your bed and sleep. Wait.. Crap... The bed's not set up and you have absolutely no idea where the box is that houses the sheets and blankets. Not to mention the pillows.

You sink slowly onto the sofa, which thankfully required just bringing in and setting down... Ahhh, just relax here a minute, close your eyes so you don't have to see all these boxes cluttering up the place...

A thing free life

I'd like to embark on a less cluttered life. One were I have less stuff. A lot of the stuff I have I probably don't need and likely won't use ever again. I hold on to it... just in case. The few times I've gotten rid of things and then needed them later makes it harder. They negate the times that I've gotten rid of things and then not needed them. (Not sure but it's probably less of the former and more of the latter too.)

One reason I'd like to do this is because I found out yesterday I'll have to move soon. Having to move less stuff would be good. It would be very good. I'm not sure how I'm going to single-handedly move what I have. Some of it I can carry if I rent a truck. Others not so much - like the couch. There are things I know I couldn't part with. (Like a certain book collection.) I'm sure though that clothes I've not worn since I moved here can go... as well as other books. Not to mention kitchen stuff I likely won't use or old hair stuff. Not to mention an assortment of papers, knick knacks and socks. (I have a lot of socks.)

I suppose I could apply this to my internal baggage too right? Should I still be feeling guilt for a snarky comment made to a girl when I was 14? (Even though it was motivated by what my young brain thought was a good idea it was still not nice.) Is it really necessary to still feel like I need to apologize for that over 15 years later? Especially since I did apologize years ago. No, not really. I need to let it go. It's interesting too how some internal clutter can be connected to the exterior clutter you keep around.

If only internal clutter were as easy to pack up and be rid of as exterior. 

Lacking Enthusiasm

I have a sad lack of enthusiasm for fireworks any more. The last few years I've had no real desire to seem them on the 4th. I bet tonight's will be an amazing spectacle and the first I would see here in CA... if I were making any effort to see them. I'm not.

I don't know why. I'm sure they'll be amazing and beautiful. They could potentially be unique. I have the opportunity to watch them from an amazing view but I really can't muster any enthusiasm to do it. I realize the point of the holiday and it's amazing to know that we still celebrate using fireworks much like we did for the first celebration. I wonder how fireworks have changed since then.