Quick Changes

It's amazing how quick our thoughts, our emotions or even our life can change. My move to here was quick. But today... well, my general mood has been the same all day and the weather reflects it well. I realize one thought I had today is also a reflection of that. (I was thinking maybe I would just go back, but I don't really want to do that. I do love living here.)

It's a rainy, gloomy day. I feel sad and glum. Today would have been my brother-in-law's birthday if he hadn't passed away earlier this year. It's also a rather uneventful day here at work so I have less to focus on. I tried listening to music and focusing on my emails (Which are in desperate need of massive focus) but I kept hearing songs that made me think too much and well... I really don't want to cry. I thought about just going home but as the only official person in the office, that's not the best idea either.

So here I sit. Trying to focus on the emails and occasionally staring out the window into the grey gloom, watching water stream down the windows.